The Fearfully Avoidant Attachment Style

There are many of us that display repeatable patterns in our life.

If you are someone who has not figured out your programing that developed in childhood, you may be questioning why interactions with people who try to love you, always ends poorly.

Insecure attachment to other people is one of your big clues that you have some unpacking to do within your core beliefs and investigate your core wounds.

This comes up a lot for people with a fearful avoidant attachment style.

The basic programing of a fearfully avoidant person is that intimacy is scary because physical and emotional security were not given to you by the parent you needed it from the most in childhood.

Typically, the most severe cases of fearful avoidant people end up that way in the scenario where a male child has a mother he couldn’t depend on and in contrast, women have the more severe cases of this attachment style when their father was avoidant, unreliable, or simply not even present.

The core wounding that occurs is that the child grows into adulthood believing that the only one who could heal them and show them how to love is the parent who cannot give them the love they needed as a child, making them unlikely to be able to give you love in adulthood unless the parent works on their own attachment insecurities. You see the cycle.

What will happen is anytime anyone gets close to a person who has a fearful attachment style is that they will get pushed away because true intimacy and true love are not safe feelings for the fearful avoidant because they live in a subconscious fear that everyone will leave them anyway so why rush the heartbreak?

The answer to this imbalanced desire for closeness yet fear of closeness of course is to heal the fearful avoidant, which will come directly from the fearful avoidant slowly learning patience with their fear and deciding not to run but to let someone else sooth them. This healing can only happen with the presence of the persistent unconditional love someone else genuinely has available to them.

Once the fearful avoidant can understand that someone else has the capacity to show them true “no strings attached love”, they can begin to heal the wounds they obtained from their parent.

This is the process of learning about what true love is. It will feel new and scary and different rather than wonderful, and exciting to the fearful avoidant but it will likely also feel like something they want.

It is a common myth that fearfully avoidant people cannot heal while in a relationship. They can. The trick is in them not running away from their own emotions in the process.

If you are someone who cares for a fearful avoidant it can be hard to handle being pushed away in the relationship (friendship or partnership) will end because the fearful avoidant is notorious for emotionally hurting the people that really do care about them by pushing them away and leaving them feeling unwanted.

This is sad all around because as we all know finding people who are willing to suffer by your side as you truly heal, is rare. Even more sad is the fact that the fearful avoidant may push someone away that at their core, they want and need.

Often the fearful avoidant will panic when they start to feel deeper feelings than they typically like to entertain. This should be expected and not taken personally, but it is usually painful on the receiving end either way.

Once the panic at the feeling of closeness happens, the fearful avoidant will come up with excuses why they don’t need a partner or they do not like to have a lot of friends. This is a defense mechanism to simply end their current uncomfortable feelings of getting too close to another person because the risk of abandonment is always alive in the subconscious.

People with these attachment styles do not get a lot of empathy, partly because it feels uncomfortable for them to receive, but more so because they can come off as arrogant and unfeeling.

Trust me when I say that is not the case at all.

These are people who were fundamentally let down by someone they needed and deserved to have protect them, and it shattered the idea that there can ever be safety in relationships with other people.

And so… until the fearfully attached person does core inner child work they will continue to attract superficial scenarios that are ego drive rather than fulfilling the core need of having supportive people they allow to love them.

The good news is that fearfully attached people can become more secure by letting people help them self-sooth and refrain from their impulse to shut down. It will take time. It will take patience… but the right people will have all of that for you.

#strikeamatch

The Truth About Healing

You are not going to go from having serious mental health challenges for years, learn some new ways of thinking for a few days, and then all of a sudden wake up in a healthy happy sustainable place.

We have to get real with each other about what the actual process of growth feels like and looks like

Healing and growth looks like only thinking about getting 1% in control of your ability to think from a different perspective each day.

A tiny change.

A small challenge to your regularly scheduled worrying, substituted with something to keep you present.

It is you working on having one thought that you are able to catch in the moment as harmful, stop it by catching it, and choosing another more re-affirming one.

If even one internal moment of your day is something you were able to change to shift your mindset to something different, then you have done all you need to be doing inside yourself.

Healing is this over and over and over.

Healing is this inner work supported by a support system of people who care for you and attending therapy.

One moment at a time, shifting your thinking, awareness, and skills slowly like this in such a way that you do not put too much pressure on yourself.

Nature moves at less than 1% a day in its growth so why wouldn’t we?

Does a new tree triple in height in 5 days? No.

Nothing in nature moves as fast as we want our own personal growth to go.

It is our expectations of getting happier and healthier that are crippling us from healing our programming that has hindered us.

This process is not one day at a time, it is in one moment in time where you are able to do something different.

Repeat.

Repeat.

Until you live like this and growth becomes your nature.

Not fear.

The Programing of Attachment, Intimacy, and Control

When you are constantly seeking external validation, it’s a side effect of the thought process to scan the environment for contextual cues for what might be impacting you.

Always looking outside of yourself for the source of the problem.

This is is also a side effect of having an external locus of control which means you believe the things in the outside world control your inside world.

The problem with this thinking is it is prone to take the control over your life, out of your hands.

There are things in this world we can not control so why would we let those factors dictate the way we feel about ourselves and the actions we take?

Taking accountability and looking at life as a series of choices that you can control is what builds self esteem and personal growth.

You may not be able to control all events, but how you react is all up to you.

It sounds like: I put ownership over my life because I always have a choice in how I react to situations

It also sounds like: I take accountability for every reaction I have to anything beyond my control and that is what gives me control over uncontrollable situations.

Here is the secret and the challenge of taking your control back:

1. You have look at everything external as something designed to grow you, not something out of your control. Every time something doesn’t go as planned, you stop, and you figure out why and what about your programming contributed to your feelings about the situation as well as the outcome.

2. You have to get really comfortable with being uncomfortable because that is what growth is. That is the challenge. The ego death of you having to be willing to go back to childhood and identify the areas you needed something different, and address it in adulthood. It’s not easy and It is worth it.

3. You will notice lots of dual truths in taking ownership over your happiness.

Control has a lot to do with attachment and the lack or abundance of attention and emotional regulation we received from our parents.

If you are someone who struggles with control and struggle with the balance of interacting with the world and protecting yourself, it’s good to know why you attach to the world around you the way that you do.

What is your Attachment Style?

Most of us have one. The reason for this is we no longer get raised in the hunter gatherer settings that civilizations began in.

We no longer have tribes of 50-100 adults showing a child the full spectrum of healthy community and familial attachment and the healthy way to attach to other people.

In America we live separate from each other in our small family units with overworked and overstressed adults raising children because that in our American culture.

Attachment styles are something we get to know about ourselves as adults in our culture, through the intimate relationships we have through our lives.

Our attachment to our partners and friends indicate how a person received love, attention, and emotional regulation lessons from their parents or primary caregiver.

When one or many of our emotional and physical needs were not met adequately for what we required as children, we learn to consider love to be the equivalent of the lack of attention our parent gave us. (This is just one example)

What this means is we will seek out to get the kind of attention or love that the parent we needed it from most, did not give to us.

Here is a full example: If you were a female who had a father who was not around you as a child to show you attention and how to handle your emotions, as an adult you may crave male attention for validity and to feel lovable and cling to the exact kind of men who will leave you or not be around like your father wasn’t- repeating the cycle of abandonment feelings that you now equate to love.

It can also mean that when you are shown true unconditional love, it is so foreign to you, that you avoid the person out of the ultimate fear that eventually they will take this love, that you rarely feel, away.

In this same example you can become an adult who anxiously attaches herself to a man needing constant reassurance from him. Or you may display an avoidant attachment style which is one who draws them near, only to eventually push away, hide, or run, citing their flaws, putting the ending of in the situation on them rather than acknowledging you are picking the wrong kind of man based on unacknowledged childhood attachment issues.

In this example the female needs to heal from her fathers lack of attention and learn for the first time, at whatever age she is, what healthy attachment looks like by communicating through her trauma with herself first and understand she is equating love with the lack of love she got from her father and that also she has value insecurities from his actions.

It takes work to have a secure attachment style in our adult relationships if we didn’t have the experiences to develop one through childhood.

Your parents are human and also products of their upbringing and decisions so they are likely passing on all they know.

Some of our parents did the best they could to perceive and meet our needs and some of our parents didn’t. Blaming them will not help you heal near as much as accepting that they are human.

It is on you as an adult to take control of your life and adult relationships.

If you are finding yourself in adult relationships that do not last, you must look at the part you are playing, accept responsibility in a radical way, and start learning why you are reacting to the intimacy of closeness the way that you are.

You are not attracting bad partners, you do not have bad friends, you have the exact kind of people in your life that your current emotional intelligence awareness level allows in.

If they are superficial, it’s likely because going below the surface makes you uncomfortable.

If you over depend on people it means there is something in you that thinks you can’t handle your life.

We all have these idiosyncrasies that we have culminated as we have gone through life and they either support our growth or they don’t.

The relationships we all want cannot happen until we process all of our programming up and through this current point in life.

It’s a radical and sometimes painful thing to take total responsibility for your future choices in how you express and accept love.

It’s also the way to high self esteem and having other people focused on growth around who can provide true love and acceptance in your life, for the rest of your life.

#strikeamatch

The Space Between

You can look at some people, make eye contact, and an immediate connection is felt.

3 seconds can transfer an understanding that words will not confirm for months.

There is so much information to gather in the space between people who are not talking.

It happens in romantic connections and in friendships.

An understanding starts to form before much else even needs to happens when two people meet when their energy is synced.

You can’t explain it after it happens because there was nothing to see, but a feeling existed somewhere in the space between you.

That is energy.

Our chemistry with people is just the way we are directing our energy and having it received.

Sometimes we mix well and sometimes we don’t.

Good vibes. Bad vibes. Vibes that last and vibes that don’t.

It is all energy being transmitted from our higher source selves which represents your cumulative vibration. It is then the perception of your energy by another person’s energy field that makes the connection draw you either closer or not.

We seek out energies that soothe what our internal energy is projecting.

The problem with this is sometimes the energy we like is the same energy that can poison us if it comes from a painful or hurt place that has yet to be healed.

Your energy is directly relational to your awareness, so understand, the people you are attracting with your energy, and the need they are supposed to be filling, is a matter of understanding your current place of awareness and processing how you got there.

Some people were deeply hurt by the avoidance of their parents, and then wonder why they keep attracting partners who can never give them the attention they need to be deeply fulfilled.

Some people have been through serious manipulation and gaslighting from their experiences, and then don’t understand why narcissistic partners keep showing up in their lives.

It’s energy. Resolved, healthy, unhealthy, it does not matter. The source of what you attract comes from your energy.

Words are not necessary with energy. You can beat around the bush all you want and confuse things with words but deep down two people can be fully aware that something else is going on on a much higher plane of reality with between each other.

We are connected. As a species when one of us puts off a pheromone that the other is attracted to we feel the magnetic pull in a mutual way without words-and is unconcerned with other variables like your personal bias, morals, and ethics. Energy makes the rules.

We meet people who have strong energy and some with weaker energy. We can mix all kinds of ways with people if we unburden our selves with who is supposed to connect with who.

We have diversity down to our spirits that is there waiting to be experienced for the greater good of all of us and our ability to love and connect with each other depends on us not being so ridged and scared of each other and judgmental exterior opinions.

The goal is to get yourself in a place where your true energy can speak from a whole place and not feel shame for who you once were, are, and are becoming. Once you liberate control over your energy, great people start showing up and amazing experiences can change the course of your life.

Energy isn’t just something that we can feel and not explain.

Energy is everything that you are and it is the reason for the people in your life being there. Everything is a result of energy.

Also keep in mind that energy can change but it never lies. Just put attention.

Start asking yourself how different people’s energy makes you feel.

Do you feel better after being with them or worse?

We complicate so much with words that it is a good idea to get in tune with your own energy, and then depend on it to guide you.

#strikeamatch

Skull talk

Skull talk is important. 

You are the voice you hear most often.

On your road to being great at communication we can’t forget about how we talk to ourselves.

How should you talk to yourself?

Try this:

Dear Self,

You don’t have to worry about someone “taking our place”.
As long as we keep welcoming challenges and looking for problems to solve we almost can’t go wrong.
There are not many other people willing to do that.

You are a hero for always trying to improve yourself.  

Don’t compare us to other people.
Compare us to our-self and measure our success on lessons learned and our perspective gained since last year.

I know money is the most popular measurement to track improvement, but it shouldn’t be.

In fact, take it easy on us from time to time!
No one is perfect.
We can’t control everything all the time.
Let’s stick to us being the change we want to see in our field of work and in our world.
We can control what we focus on.

I know our best is good enough.
I think the trick is sticking to what we are best at and surrounding ourselves with people who can help us with the rest.

Stop talking about how “we are not getting any younger”
Who is?!
I know, I know… A younger body would be nice.
But I wouldn’t trade our wisdom for anything.
What we lack in stamina we can make up for in making smart moves.

Let’s follow trends to keep up with what our customers want.
I am okay with that.
But please don’t forget to learn from those who have proved a strategy that works in the year we are living in.

I am aware we have responsibilities.
Just don’t forget us in the mix.
I am you.

I know we haven’t been the best of friends in the past.
Let’s let those days be finished.
Together I get the feeling we can get back up from anything.

#onyou #strikeamatch #burnyourships

The Traditional Story of New Year’s

Soon we will put 2018 on our documents and it will feel new.

Why does the conclusion of one calendar for the beginning of another hold so much of our attention?

Why do we anticipate coming of a new year with such hopeful possibility?

Is this time of year more magical in its influence over us than any other time?

Of course!

But why?

The Decision:

Reality exists in your mind before you will see it in your life.

We have nominated the coming of a new year as special in our culture.

We have decided to make it special.

The New Decision:

What if you didn’t reserve this positive outlook for one time of year?

What if you decided that every day you would feel the newness of the traditional New Years optimism?

Is it possible to think this way?

Yes.

Here is the truth:

You can.

You can start every day with the same refreshed perception of your future.

It is as simple as deciding to practice being optimistic and energetic.

Here is the mindset:

Every hour is new.

Every day and every minute.

Why celebrate just once a year?

What good is it?

Why isn’t it enough to say we are always in a position to do what we want?

I believe it is enough and I believe you deserve to feel powerful every day.

The new year starts in September, March, April, January and other months depending on the culture you observe.

Do we magically change as a human that day?

No, we don’t.

We can be better as we go.

Here is a darker and more urgent truth about life:

It ends.

The best New Years resolution goals live in the graveyard. Unrealized dreams because they were always put off for the new year.

You are alive.

Take a hold of your every day and race it until nightfall.

Take control of your goals by acting on them.

Know that a goal is just a dream unless you act.

The Motto:

The happiest I have ever been is now.

I am my own boss.

I own my decisions.

I accept the challenges that come as part of my journey.

I have decided not need a new year.

I have accepted being in a constant state of gratitude because it is the way to greatness.

I have no competition outside of myself.

I am in control of my journey because I can always make different decisions.

I steer the course.

Today and every day.

Soon we will put 2018 on our documents.

Happy New Years will be said.
Resolutions will be made.

Resolutions will broken…but not by you.

#strikeamatch

#cdmthinktank  #byoalpha

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